We're on to our second debate now and this time I'm working with Andy. Somehow it ended up that Nicole is working with Ethan on this one. I know she's not doing anything intentionally but I'm so annoyed that she gets Ethan. She has a boyfriend that all the girls love, and now she gets Ethan too. I know I'm not making any sense. She doesn't have Ethan, nor does she want him. I just wish I got to be his debate partner.

So Nic feels bad about it and has offered to help me with the last minute Halloween Party I'm throwing tomorrow night. She even convinced Ethan that he has to come! This afternoon we're going shopping for our costumes. I haven't decided what I'm going to be yet but it has to be something that will catch his eye. My mind is set on him.

Last night was the first time that Ethan has shown any interest in something besides school work. But that something wasn't me.

Before our meeting, Nicole and I stopped in a Hallmark store and she bought a CD of piano music. She was looking at it in the coffee shop while we waited for Ethan and Andy to arrive. Ethan walked in and noticed the CD and started asking about it. They got into a long conversation about how she misses Josh and how she bought the CD because he's a piano player. It went on and on. I love Nicole, but I was hoping Ethan would take an interest in me - not in her and her CD.

I guess I'm going to have to work harder to get his attention. Tomorrow is our class and I am going to make sure to wear my blue sweater. It fits right in all of the right places and it makes my eyes pop. If that doesn't work I will have to remind myself of the golden rule: don't like guys who don't like you.

No posts recently. It's pathetic, but I must admit there hasn't been anyone of the male persuasion that I could blog about. Until now.

Nicole and I were put into a debate group with two guys. Too bad she's taken or I'd be working the double dating angle. But anyway...they are Ethan and Andy, and I've got my sights set on Ethan. I'm trying not to be too obvious about it. I decided I'd make him love me by showing him how amazing I am. The only problem is that we only see each other in class or when we're meeting about the debate and he's all work. His head is constantly in the books, and that kind of makes it hard for him to see how amazing I am.

Plus I am so nervous talking to him that I seem like a complete idiot. I figured that I'll just talk to Andy and let Ethan overhear how great I am. I'm not sure if it's working yet. Nic and I are meeting them tonight to do more research so we'll see how things go.

As far as the brief moment where I thought for a moment that I might like Jason...I have officially, 100% decided that it was a strange cosmic shift that shifted back to neutral as quickly as it shifted in his direction. We get along great but romance is a completely different story. Besides I think he's hooking up with his ex. We all went camping this past weekend and they were attached at the hip.

Anyway, it's almost time to see Ethan. Must go beautify!