I bought the Wii. Molly, Amanda and I played it all weekend. I mean, literally ALL weekend. It rained the whole weekend so that was our excuse. I am awesome at wii bowling! :)

Today has been a typical Monday morning. Everyone is working quietly at their desk. Ben stopped by and I told him about the Wii. He asked why I didn't invite him over. Damn - had I known he'd come I would have invited him in a heartbeat!

Chad was singing "Manic Monday" earlier this morning but he's quieted down for now. I hope it stays that way - at least for the next 10 minutes, then I leave for school.

I talked to Nicole yesterday. She's coming home on Wednesday for a few days. I can't wait to see her.

That's all for now!

The Office was awesome last night! I loved every minute of it. Perhaps it was because I watched it with Ben. Yes, with Ben! :)

So I've been feeling really down because my best friend is in Florida and I know she's miserable. Plus, Molly is driving me crazy because she has an opinion on everything and I just don't want to hear it all the time. So I've been kind of grouchy lately. Well, last Friday Ben noticed I wasn't myself so he asked me if I wanted to go out to lunch to get my mind off of things. We went out and I told him about all the things that are going on and he really made me feel much better. All week, he's been stopping by my desk to see how I'm doing. It's really sweet! Yesterday we were talking about The Office and the next thing I knew, he invited me over to watch it with him last night. Maybe he's finally starting to notice I'm alive!

Today it's gloomy out but I'm in a much better mood. I have some extra cash saved up so I'm going to buy a Wii after work. I've been wanting one forever so I'm finally going to get one. I can't wait!

That's all for now!

It's another gloomy day in New Jersey. I don't care it matches my mood. Last night I had to sit and hear Molly go on and on and on about how Nicole is making a huge mistake. She wants to call Josh and tell him the truth. She didn't, but I'm not sure she won't. Nic's secret may not be a secret for too long. I think that if a friend tells you something in confidence you should keep it in confidence. I know she has a lifelong friendship with Josh but she's one of Nicole's best friends. I think she should keep her mouth shut and stay out of it.

Patrick is in town this weekend. He's taking me out tonight. It's not a date. We're way past that, but I'm still looking forward to it. I always have a good time when I'm with him. I hope it takes my mind off of things...you know, like death, heartache, betrayal, the fact that Ben treats me more like a sister than a potential girlfriend.

Boy, am I doom and gloom or what? I should snap out of it. I shouldn't personalize other people's problems - even if those other people are my best friends. This is why I could never go into psychology. I find it fascinating, but I would totally take on everyone's problems.

Well, now I'm rambling so I should log off. My class starts in a few minutes anyway.

I'm completely bummed out since Nicole left. This morning it's hitting me especially hard. Maybe it's the dreary weather. In any event, this whole thing just sucks.

Josh's going away party was really pretty depressing. He looked like he was putting on a brave face the whole night. Angelo asked him to sing a country song as a tribute to his new job in Nashville. Josh sang a song called "Trying To Stop Your Leaving." It was so obvious to everyone there who it was about.

Nic doesn't seem to be doing much better. I called my mom last night and asked her to stop over and check on Nicole for me. I'm so worried about her. I wish she would just tell Josh why she couldn't go to Nashville. It would make things so much easier.

Aside from all of the gloom and doom in my friends' lives, my life is going okay. I guess I feel a little guilty about it. I like my classes and work is going well. Things aren't perfect but at least I'm not facing the death or a parent and the loss of my greatest love. I wish there was more I could do to help, but I'm stuck up here in New Jersey and Nicole is so far away. The whole thing just sucks. :(

School is back in session and my life has normalized again. I miss the dancing - even if it did monopolize my every minute. I'm in the best shape of my life! I have to figure out a way to keep that up without hours of rehearsal every day!

Work is the same. Ben asked me to join him for lunch today. We get along so well, but I can't stop thinking that this is just a friend thing for him. I know he took his break up with the ex-girlfriend hard, but it's been a few months now. I think he needs to move on. I just wish I could figure out how to touch his heart.

Ben said he's taking me out to lunch because I've been a stress ball all week. It's true. With classes starting and things with Nicole's father, I have been so stressed. Every time I see her I just want to break down in tears. She's going through hell and she's let go of the one person who can help her. It makes me really sad.

Tonight I'm going to Josh's going away party. I haven't seen him but Molly told me he's not doing so well since Nic broke up with him. It will be so weird to be there without her. I tried talking her into going, but she says he doesn't want to see her. Apparently they talked last night and it didn't go so well.

I probably should stop now and get back to work. It's going to be a long day.

I won! I won! I won! I won the competition! I don't have much time to blog right now because I'm at work, but I wanted to post that I won! (This is the only place I can show off, right?)

Finally! I have time to blog. Tonight is the last night of the dance competition and then I'll really have time to blog. I can't believe I made it all the way to the finals. And I really can't believe that I have an actual chance at winning this! It's just amazing. It's be so time consuming but so worth it. I had no idea that I'd fall in love with ballroom and latin dancing. Now I know why Nicole loves it so much!

Tonight we redo our first dance to "Candy Man" then we do a new Cha Cha to "Waiting For Tonight" and we do our Free Style to Madonna's "Four Minutes." I am so excited. The excitement makes up for the sore muscles and fatigue.

A bunch of people from work are coming out tonight to support me - including Ben. Nothing much has happened there. We hang out around the office some times but it hasn't evolved into anything. I'm still holding out hope. I just have this feeling that he and I would be so good together! Maybe my moves will impress him tonight.