I'm completely bummed out since Nicole left. This morning it's hitting me especially hard. Maybe it's the dreary weather. In any event, this whole thing just sucks.

Josh's going away party was really pretty depressing. He looked like he was putting on a brave face the whole night. Angelo asked him to sing a country song as a tribute to his new job in Nashville. Josh sang a song called "Trying To Stop Your Leaving." It was so obvious to everyone there who it was about.

Nic doesn't seem to be doing much better. I called my mom last night and asked her to stop over and check on Nicole for me. I'm so worried about her. I wish she would just tell Josh why she couldn't go to Nashville. It would make things so much easier.

Aside from all of the gloom and doom in my friends' lives, my life is going okay. I guess I feel a little guilty about it. I like my classes and work is going well. Things aren't perfect but at least I'm not facing the death or a parent and the loss of my greatest love. I wish there was more I could do to help, but I'm stuck up here in New Jersey and Nicole is so far away. The whole thing just sucks. :(