I am home from a weekend at the beach. I was there with friends and as usual, it was entertaining. There is one thing I can count on with my friends and that is that things are never boring.

My friend Jason was there. He is the guy that Nicole thinks I want. We are friends and I admit that I find him attractive, but he doesn't seem to think of me as anything more than a friend. I have a rule that I don't want guys who don't want me, so I've put him out of my mind.

The problem is that I have no one to replace him with. I just can't seem to find the guy who will turn my world upside down. I know he's out there somewhere, but where? I keep telling myself that I have to focus on me, that by being a better person, I'll attract him. I just wish it didn't have to be so hard. And even if it does, why can't I find a cute guy to hang out with in the meantime?