Jason and I talked last night. He's not ready to start up anything with anyone right now. And he's sorry.

I know he wasn't trying to mess with me, but you know what? He did! I was fine. I was happy. I was into Patrick and then Jason kissed me. And suddenly that kiss was the only thing I wanted. Jason was the only thing I wanted.

This sucks. Today sucks. School is closed but work is open. Josh helped me clear off my car and get out this morning. He had to go to school so at least I wasn't the only one who had to go out. I wish I could have stayed home and stayed in bed all day. I am so not in the mood to deal with people. I just want to sulk in peace.