The kiss with Jason awakened something in me that I didn't even know was there. I wasn't thinking about him or wanting him before. Now - all of a sudden - he's on my mind constantly. How is it possible that in one brief moment your relationship with someone can change so dramatically?

I haven't seen him since Tuesday and it's making me a little crazy. I need to see him. I need to know what he's thinking. What was that kiss to him? Was it a means to feel better about his break up? Or could he really want to be with me?

I've been so distracted. I can't think about anything else. All I do is sit around and think about that kiss. I keep replaying it in my mind, over and over. I keep hoping that I'll remember something that will clue me in to what he's thinking.

I'm purposely hanging out on campus because I know his lab finishes up soon and I want to run into him. I don't want to be scoping him out, but I think it would be better to run into him here than at home. It would be too weird to be standing outside in the cold waiting for him to get home. At least I can make it look casual here. All I know is that I have to see him - and I have to see him today. I can't go any longer without knowing.