My lunch with Ben last week went really well. Maybe too well. My little crush is turning into a big crush. I can't stop thinking about him. I suddenly have a one-track mind that focuses on Ben non-stop.

I think he thinks about me too. It's hard to know for sure but he's been more friendly lately. He's rescued me from Chad and his craziness a few times this week. Mel says it's a good sign. I don't know. I hope it's a good sign, but after my luck with men the past few months I'm hesitant to get too excited. For now I'll just assume it's a one-sided crush.

I am dancing with JD in the competition this summer. I'm so excited - and nervous. It's real now. I am going to learn to ballroom dance and do it in front of strangers in a competitive atmosphere. Man, I give the celebrities on DWTS a lot of credit. If I'm this nervous about a local contest, I can't imagine what it must be like to do it on a high rated national television show!